Svarun has the ability to press all of my premenstrual self's buttons. If anyone, he has a gift of finding those hidden ones that catapult me into a wretch. One such button that really opens up my head is obeying. Or rather, disobeying, his tendency to do the exact opposite of what I tell him to. Of course I can …
Oznaka: motherhood
A Ten Second Ritual
I remember mentioning up here already that I have acquired a new habit of doing my morning sādhanā outside in the meadows of our Karst prairie. It’s the best decision I’ve taken in a while because it grounds me like nothing else, connects me to everything else and our beloved, loyal Bora blows all the …
For Fear of …
* What do you do when you fear you will hurt? When you first sense the ripples of a drama effect inside you, bouncing uncontrollably to the surface of your experience? * What do you hold on to? * Which feeling/ story/ role do you play out? I’ve been having multitudes lately. It’s not that …
Indecisiveness
“What happened to you?” he asks me, munching on his dinner, while I’m holding the computer in my hands and letting myself be receptive to today’s story. “What do you mean?” I ask, totally knowing what he meant. “What happened so that you can finally be relaxed?” “I don’t know yet. I haven’t gotten to …
Afraid of Being Bored?
The past few days at a festival were busy, diverse, and lively. As I was going, I could barely keep up with the pace and the heat. But retrospectively, at the end of each day, I felt relaxed, nurtured and full. The happening made me realize how much I’d missed diversity ... so I drank …
I am Enough
I’m sitting on Svarun’s bathroom step stool (you know the little steps they make for children to reach bathroom sink) while the computer is resting on our bamboo laundry hamper, dancing throughout my typing. I just washed my hair, something I was looking forward throughout the day, and I love how the water is freely …
On Our True Essence
I held the Universe in my hands. It was looking back at me, curiously. I was touched by the Eternity and the Now when I held a newborn in my hands yesterday. My best friend gave birth to Eon Vitan a week ago and upon losing my wallet, I decided to hitchhike there. I was in …
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